Announcing to Friends

Luna helping me change the bed

We couldn't tell most people on the Friday, we were lost and numb and couldn't face talking to anyone. I sent the following emails to a friend at our archery club and we messaged a few close friends and family on Facebook to let them know he had passed. We didn't want to talk to anyone, couldn't speak through the tears.

22November 6:27

This is going to be a short message :( Luna died early hours of this morning and we are devastated. I stayed up all night with him because he wasn't well and I'm still up. We knew it was quite serious but he got worse quickly. Luckily I knew and Lee got to spend his last hour with him too. He'd only been in bed a little while as he stopped up late with him too. He was running round the garden this afternoon :( We are taking him to the crematorium this morning. I don't know if we will be at archery tomorrow, Lee won a medal also.

23 November 6.32

Thank you for your card, it was lovely and set me off again, doesn't take much. I am a bit of a wreck at the moment. Lee is too but I'm pretty sure he will go to archery today to take his mind of it, but he can't talk about it much. I've just printed off a picture of Luna and put it in a frame and lit a little candle. It's a lovely picture of him and looks like he is in the clouds. I'm so sad I even keep sniffing his blankets. Going to paint a memorial picture today (my style) to help me cope.

23 November 2019 14:39

Spoke to vet yesterday too and they said that it sounds like it might have been a liver tumour/cancer and maybe infection for it to happen so quickly. His thyroid reading was a bit low again. 

Don't read this bit if it upsets you, haven't told anyone else in detail. We are a bit better than yesterday but still up and down. I'm really sad when mum starts crying. Couldn't go into it all yesterday but Luna started off wanting to go in the garden and trying to do little wees but nothing happening but not surprised as he had a long one at the beginning. But then he was standing in the rain and wouldn't come in, just wandering around. Called Lee and he said he probably wanted a no.2 as he had done this before but nothing. Then we managed to get him inside and he settled down but couldn't lie down on his side. He was pretty unsettled for most of the night but then did a little poo while he was lying down, at this stage he couldn't get up very well. He did move half way across the room and then settled in the far end of the room and was sick twice in the corner. He just stayed there for a while and we kept giving him a little fuss while he tried to get comfortable and go to sleep. I knew then what was happening. Lee and mum went to bed this was about 1am and I stayed up. Called Lee at 2.30 am because it looked like it was getting near. Luna's eyes were glazed over and then he would come back again, try to move a bit but eventually he just closed his eyes and then his breathing slowed down and gradually got longer before each breath. I think he went in his sleep and peacefully. My friend told me that they don't feel pain when it is the liver as one of her friends died of liver cancer. Once me and Lee had cried and cuddled him I got mum up and then she lay on the floor with him and was sobbing her heart out. I still cry thinking about it. She is like us and keeps having a little cry, sometimes she leaves the room wiping her eyes. It's so sad. We are all the same and trying to deal with it. So many memories and things around even though I've cleared almost everything away. The house feels so empty.

It was Sunday when I posted on Facebook and responses from friends and family was lovely. I couldn't answer, only cry as I read them.